Breathe,

SIGHS even Gor's last paper is tml -_- why is the whole world finishing their exams so soon!?


And i think im overly stressed. I always feel feverish the night before a paper, like now. Gonna go into prayer soon so God pls take away all my discomfort! AMEN.


Really cant wait for the next crazy 3 days to be over. My life is gonna be so exciting after exams. RIGHT RETARDZZZZZZ!? ha ha ha.

My beloved Law lecturer (seriously hes super funny)hahahahahahahh Ravi hope u din set the paper too hard! (fyi tml's law paper)
Okay off to bedddddddddddddd

I cant thank God enough for mummy's safe return :>

Its 3.30AM now and im still awake. Jap paper later at 5pm, lets see how im gonna drown drown drown in 50 crazy tricky sickening irritating(the list goes on) mcqs ha ha. After that yay im going for cell since fri's a public holiday! AND MUMMY'S COMING HOME ON FRI!! :DDDD


OH YES retard and I are going to watch New Moon on the 6th Dec! Booked tickets already ha ha ya i know this is kiasuism at play.
3 more papers to goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. Never felt this dreadful :<

I NEED TO RANT!! ACC PAPER WAS A DISASTER!! Everything also cannot balance and my workings are like in a big mess :/ But thank God really that most of the rest are like me haha not that i evil okay, its all about comparative results what, no?


And, i shant brood over acc paper alr. I love it when im taking things in my stride and leaning on God TOTALLY. I know everything is in His control (: In the past, so many unexpected and good things have happened to me, so keep believing limin!


4 more papers to goooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

Before i head off to do MORE accounting (-_-) just wanna say,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RETARDZZZ!! LOVE YOU FOR BEING WHO YOU ARE, IF YOU ARE A GUY, I'LL MAKE YOU MY BF PLS!! HAHAHAHA


P.S God bless you :D

Just as i was washing up preparing to sleep after studying, i heard my neighbour's alarm clock -_- Time to sleep? Time to wake up?


Anyway, really thank God for technology, ive been talking to mummy online everyday(: I think she's sian of me also. HAHA. yay one more week and she'll be back alr :> And its seriously distracting(esp during this time) cos i keep shopping at supre and cotton on online! But what to do supre's not in sg, how to resist not asking mummy to buy!!


<3

Say im childish, say im a momma's girl whatever you want, but i really miss my mummy already :( i know its just 2 weeks but its really the first time i'll be away from her for this long. Usually AT MOST it'll be just a few days. Cant believe i teared all the way from airport to cell, esp when i msged her, "Take care!!" and saw her reply "ok you too." omg pls come back safely! I'll be praying for you mummy, praying that there'll be internet connection and praying that you'll enjoy yourself. I know God will be watching over you :) Everything's in control :)


AND I HATE FATS HE FINISHED HIS O'S TODAY WTHHHHHHH


Had a night's out with joel and retard last night (: 2012 was okay only, really typical the-day-aft-tml kinda movie. haha took some retarded photos as usual and shit im really getting chubbier. PLS SAVE ME. No worries i'll start working out the moment my exams end kays fats go awayyyyy.


OH YA i went to Meng Lin's house ytd to check out our goods too. THEY ARE AWESOME PLS :D we were like some bimbos trying out the clothes, funny like crazy!! haha i love days like these (; and if we were some rich kids, we would have kept all of them for ourselves! But in the end I kept a really pretty white vest and a military vest. Do look out for our collection after our exams kay!


And today i insanely agreed to meet some of my classmates for breakfast at like 7 at tiong bahru? haha i seriously wondered why i even agreed. Actually funny thing is that all of us were clueless why we replied brendon's msg with a 'yes'. -_- If not for Hengyi i wouldnt have gotten out of bed in time! Whats wrong with me these days man seriously :( I missed the whole week's lectureS cos i overslept, thats why today i had to go for the makeup one, oh but luckily Jack went with me if not i'll be alone listening to the quirky cck -_-


Wow super long post today. This will compensate my lack of updates for the next 3 weeks k cos its gonna be HARDCORE STUDYING TIME

P.S RETARDZ ADD OIL FOR OUR EXAMS K AFTER EXAMS WE'LL PARTY!!

YIPEE IM SO EXCITED COS IM GONNA GO WATCH 2012 WITH RETARD AND JOEL TML! :> I think the last time i ever watched a movie was like million of years ago?




Tml will also be the day of submission for my LAST assignment of this sem! :) :) :) Although its gonna be hardcore studying the following week but i know i'll pull through with Him with me (;


But sadly mummy's gonna fly for New Zealand this fri :( First time she'll be away from home (and me) for so long! Dunno if i'll cry when i send her off at the airport. But thank God for technology, i'll be chatting with her online ha ha ha. Not hoping she'll buy anything back for me, just praying hard for her safe return and that she'l have a terrific time there of cos (fingers crossed)


Off to do Jap now!

I know im seriously pressed for time but i want to write sth here!!


A BIG SHOUT OUT TO ALL MY LOVED ONES WHO MADE MY BIRTHDAY SUCH A BLAST :]


I really enjoyed myself over these 3 days though projects were in the way! You know, its not so much about the presents, but purely because of the fact that you guys remembered my birthday(;


And, I realise that as i grew older, i dont yearn to have like the latest gadgets or bags like in the past. Instead, its the simplest but most sincere things that people do that make me feel really blessed and valued(; Thanks a million for the precious 100+ smses/fb msges/well wishes! LOVES <3



I promise to upload some photos soon okay let me clear my projects first :S



Last but certainly not the least, i wanna give all my praise and thanksgiving to Him. You made everything possible :D

Just when i decided to really forget about the whole freaking *** paper incident and get on with life, i found another malaysian newpaper with our article. It was in chinese but i forced myself to read every single word carefully although i havent done this for years. To my horror, the article is even more demeaning. I think these idiots are just plain jealous that nus is so much better than their lao pok uni and they are trying to say such mean things about us. Like come on they say what our brain so inflexible yada yada. CAN YOU GUYS JUST GO AND GET A LIFE SERIOUSLY. I REALLY HATE THAT JOURNALIST I WANNA SUE HER. Next time i see her on the streets, i promise i'll box her seriously GRRR


Anyway, we know we've seriously done our bestest for this proj. Prof David said he was a lil disappointed with us, but THANK GOD he believed we had good intentions. Sigh, i still havent dismissed the possibility of our marks being slashed cos of this really grave mistake though. But, i'll really leave this up to God. I KNOW HE HAS PLANS FOR ME AND THE DEVIL WONT GET HIS WAY AMEN.

For once i got to feel how terrible it must have been for artistes to be degraded on newspapers or have had their words twisted like twisties. I totally din say those nasty words pertaining to our project and the FREAKING journalist had like PERFECT inference skills to write all those shit. All we were asked were what the other groups were doing and HELLO we din even say we were more superior can. *** paper is such a bitch seriously.


Stress in school is really ultimate, every single day i feel so worn out, esp with all these kind of things happening to me. Like, the journalist kept quoting my name for really controversial stuff. Thank God theres like no photo of me, but still i feel really wronged.


And, i know im never ever supposed to feel inferior because what i have is entirely God's design. But, i cant help but feel this way this time. Why din i get in? Its really not so much about the post, but why is it that i always fail to impress during interviews? Is it that my face is just plain irritating? Or that im too ugly? or that i just give people the impression that im not competent enough? What happened to the confidence i once had?


Ive already come to a point where im so tired, so tired of feeling sad or crying it out.


God, please take away all my imperfections

Life's seriously very hard these days. Deadlines are so close to each other and i really dont have time to breathe SCREAMS. Last night i slept at 4 plus cos of mno proj and my back is still aching from the bad position i slept on qian's sofa. Ha ha ha thank God for Jiamin though, she really made me laugh damn a lot. Speaking of mno proj, check out The New Paper, 24th Oct. Haha theres an article on us but crap the journalist added in something really embarrassing about me! It was meant to be a joke when we told her about it can, sigh dunno whether to be angry or what :( And its kinda scary that Joel's friend(whom i dunno) told joel that i(my name) was on the papers when my face is not even there?


Supposed to eat my fav garlic prawn pasta with retard tml but its cancelled :( Hate it when school bribes our time away.


Anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAUREEN! :D

You see, school has been so crazy that i dont even have the time and energy to blog. But really thank God for funny friends in school. They really keep me going, seriously(; Aside from the stress and heavy workload, i must say school's been good with them around!


Deadlines are really slamming hard into my face and it really sucks to have grp mates who merely talk and dont do work, find excuses and are PLAIN IRRITATING. I actually tolerated her for 9 weeks. Today finally marks the day i questioned her, on email though haha.


I really miss my carefree life, i really miss shopping with retard, i really miss exercising cos now im too tired to even move, i really miss feeling wide awake during service, i really miss sleeping till 5pm. Sigh uni life is really not as easy as i imagined.

Today i dragged myself out of bed to have breakfast with mummy(; Finally popped the question about wanting to go on an exchange programme next year. At first, i was very worried that i may burden my parents financially afterall im not some millionaire. But thank God, they are really supportive. hahah really really happy. Now i need to study real hard and get a high cap score so that i can apply next year in Jan. I hope to go to Japan!! OMG cant imagine myself leaving sg and living there for 6 months. But im sure it'll be all cool (; I need to pray pray pray!


So poor thing my parents have been so paranoid lately about the car. They are like so scared that one day when they go down they find the car missing. God pls watch over the car! Im sure it wont turn out this way with You around! and crazy duplicating the car key is NO JOKE. Cost a whopping $250 CRAP.


Workload really piling as week 10 is nearing. Week 10 is when we need to hand up alot alot of assignments. Sleepless nights :( haha but its okay ive got new motivation now JAPANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

You know, i feel that i can never thank Jocelyn enough for bringing me to church. My life is definitely filled with so much more optimism, with all my cell friends (thanks nan for the mooncakes!) and of cos divine strength from God. If you're a christian, im sure you know what i mean(;


I admit, after the acc paper, i felt like i was totally screwed. I studied really hard for it seriously, but i know i suck at mcqs cos i always choose the wrong answers. Mummy brought me shopping after that, shopped like how we did in hk super shiok. But, when i got home, reality set in and i was once again feeling very very depressed about the test :(


But, im truly blessed after today's service(; Pastor said that many a times, we are just toooo overly caught up with the world and we always feel we lack. Well, i do. I always feel insufficient in my studies, im always so easily affected by grades and all. I am living for myself, and not for the kingdom of heaven's sake. You might think im all so holy but no. I think it's very true cos as i begin to fully trust God and his will for me, i feel less depressed. In fact, im no longer upset over the acc test. I want to trust his divine authority (;


Sigh, Daddy dropped the car key somewhere in the park today and he's getting all paranoid about the car being gone the next morning. He went in to sleep but suddenly woke up and went down to check for the car(and it was raining). God, pls protect our car!

Financial acc mid-terms on sat :S can say im very very extremely nervous about it. Its act a 1 hr 25 mcq paper, but im treating it like its a 25 essay paper. BIG BIG SIGH. so stressed till i had a really bad headache last night and so decided to turn in early at 10pm. Imagine how painful it was uh :( Don't know why im feeling so stressed, but i just dont wanna underestimate a seemingly easy 25 mcq paper and i really wanna do well for my first ever uni exam. Im praying really hard..


Cant wait for mid-terms to be over cos i know i'll feel so much more relieved though projects are still piling up. haha cant wait for the dinner/filming of prostitutes at geylang on sat and shopping trip with the girls on mon! i know ive gotta stock up on more corporate wear, oh yes and can anyone tell me how to shed off a GIGANTIC butt cos i have one and i look like shit in pencil skirts :(


Okay i need to run to my acc revision now. Pls say a prayer for me k(:


P.S CANT BELIEVE NICOLE SCHERZINGER IS IN TOWN!!
haha and even my mum knows she's Hamiliton's girl and i dont :X

Stayed home all day today hee feeling very good because i slacked quite abit :P Am gonna start racking my brains about my 10-page long(OMG) term paper soon but thought i shall blog about VMAs'09 cos i just watched it on MTV just now.


All i want to say is TAYLOR SWIFT IS SO HOT and Kanye West is a total idiot, like seriously. I watched the video of kanye dissing taylor on youtube but din feel the awkwardness taylor felt on stage, only until today! She just stood there speechless, looking like shes gonna cry any min. KANYE WEST YOU GO AND DIE. haha and taylor did a performance which was so cool, on a subway! Go watch it! And her video "You Belong With Me" is soooo sweet! Oh and Lady Gaga brought along Hermit the frog haha so funny and Janet Jackson was total coolstuff.


And this reminds me of Sun! A few days back was her official release of her debut US single-Fancy Free. The more i watch it, the more i think shes really transformed. She reminds me of Lady Gaga haha and her hair is damn cool! If only im brave enough to cut my hair like hers. Her singing really improved a lot too im serious go watch plss! Im sure Pastor is so proud of her (;

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uFh9Su_SiM4

And P.S do you know the director of her video, Joseph Kahn is like the director of videos by Britney Spears, Justin Timberlake etc etc? DOPE STUFF RITE

Sunday was spent fruitfully(; Went for service as usual. Teared quite abit cos i really feel i've let God down. Ever since school started, i was so caught up with the world, with school, with tuts/readings, with netball etc etc that i tend to neglect God. I compromised on quiet time/cell group cos i was soo tired. Purely coincidental, today i came to church with a mindset that i WANT to cleave onto God no matter how tired or hopeless i may be. And Pastor actually preached about it! haha freaky i know. It was really timely(; I dun ever wanna backslide like many other christians, cos im really thankful for all God has blessed me with, so i know that i know that i know i need to find back my drive


Had a short but totally hilarious lunch at macs with joce aft service(; omg we laughed like 10 years never laugh. All thanks to her funny neighbour. Cant forget the part about the "Girll, you got rice? Aunty need 1kg of rice" hahahhahah what the crap. 


AND ME WANT EAT MOONCAKE


Pretty uh

Yayness the weekends are here and RECESS WEEK! (; I know its not gonna be a total holiday but well better than nth! I know i have loads of things to do, but screw them(for the time being) and just relax for these 2 days! hahah im gonna meet retard tml evening for shopping(YAYY); stupid ifg, have to schedule the game at such an ungodly time-2PM GRRR.


Today was yet another great time spent with the girls in nus's munchie monkey(; We din break record but we talked cock for 5 and 1/2 hrs this time haha i really dont know how come we've got so much to laugh and talk about(; Am looking forward to class potluck next thurs at weijie's, hee gonna bake my yummylicious muffins for them!


Anyway 2 days back i found this webby that im totally fascinated in
Link: http://lookbook.nu

Im like so impressed and most imptly inspired by how people dress up from all over the world. Some are really pretty(; Actually i find myself really intrigued by fashion, how i wish i could do sth in the fashion industry!







Some of my favs, esp the raincoat-like one! screamsss. Oh except for the first pic la haha i put that up for fun cos it reminded me of Jap studies. Know why? Shes apparently a 46 yr old Japanese from Osaka haha act can tell rite..

Just got home, gonna hurry start on my Jap readings but thought maybe i should do a lil update here(;


Today was great(; Only had wdl's tut and off we went to IMM for lunch. Had seafood platter at Cafe Cartel and de-stressed. AND OMG WE STAYED TILL 9PM! (fyi we reached at 1) hahah so that means we talked for like 8hrs?! hahah funny we talk more than we sleep since on average we're like having 5 hrs of sleep everyday. Cant believe we had so much to talk about, and amazing thing is we never stopped. Its been awhile since i really had a great day(; 8hrs-RECORD!

(p.s maureen too bad you left early! :( )


Term break's next week and im really looking forward to it! Im promising myself to really catch up on all that im lagging in and most importantly, to really relax and recharge. I really feel like renting a beetle and drive around sg!


Medicine match tml, not hoping much :X They're one bunch of smart people who are also good in sports sigh unfair! haha and mummy must pick me from sch, i took bloody 1 hr to come home on mon simply cos src is totally inaccessible and inconvenient and i waited soooo long for my bus to come. I thought nus is only 5 mins from home, how the hell i managed to take 1 hr rite. GRRRR.


P.P.S RETARD I HAVE $20 OF J.CO DONUT VOUCHERS WE GO EAT 20 DONUTS TOG KAYYYYY HEEE